This post was difficult to write, for one because writing is hard (more on that later), and also because I could not decide on what to do with my projects.
So here goes: I have not worked on anything “High Pressure Tanks” related in the last four months. Phew.
To be fair, I have just started university in September and have been quite busy. But during all that time I never wanted to work on HPT at all. I don’t know if this was because I just was too exhausted or because I really did not want to continue it. In any case, HPT hasn’t seen any update since July 2016 and the last bigger update was in April. For most of the summer I have been working on the HPT Wiki over at http://hptanks.wikia.com, I automated the generation of wiki pages, recipe templates, and everything but in the end it was just a huge waste of time and I grew tired of working on it and HPT.
For the last few months I have been torn, I could not decide what to do with HPTanks, I didn’t have the time or motivation to actively work on it but I also did not want to just abandon it. But now I have decided to stop working on High Pressure Tanks all together. This now seems more like a formality, as I have not been working on it for some time, but it is something that needs to be said (mainly for the sake of my sanity). The thought of having HPT as a still open project on which I was not working on, was very stressful, and every time I considered doing some work, I just got overwhelmed by the thought of having to dig into the project again and the poorly managed code base did not help.
It is sad to stop working on this project, I have been working on for over three years, but it is also relieving. High Pressure Tanks was something that was always in the back of my mind nagging me to work on it and the longer I didn’t do anything about it, the more stress it caused and it was just something that clogged up my todo-list and caused some mental noise.
From now on HPTanks will not receive any updates, I will still respond to and fix reported bugs though, unless they require major code changes.
And while we’re killing off projects, I also have to announce that there will be no more “Journey of the Programmer” posts. This decision was a bit easier but it also pains me because it’s a project that barely even got started, and here is why:
As I mentioned at the beginning, writing is hard, or more accurately, I’m not good at it.
When I was writing the draft for the new post, I had the hardest time. I would rewrite a paragraph several times and would still not be satisfied with it and every day I sat down again to write, I basically rearranged and rewrote major parts of the post just because it wasn’t perfect. That particular draft is still not finished, it took me over a week of daily writing to get it to where it is now, and I still hate it.
It feels nice to have these things off my chest and off my mind, I hope that I now can concetrate more on my studies and maybe a little project here or there while avoiding the mistakes I made with HPTanks.
If you are still reading this in 2016, I wish you a happy new year.